You

"I don't know what happen right now... With all things around me, with that peoples and with me.

I can't understand, I can't feel anything, I can't stay awake.

Well... I don't know exactly why...

I think, I am numb."

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I sit at my room, read Murakami, a cup of tea beside my comfy bed.

That night isn't like other nights before, and start tomorrow my day will be different until the time that I never know.

I lean my head, staring at the ceiling, my mind full with distraction.

I decide to close my book then close my eyes, try to relax my mind.

Yes, it works.

In there I see your face, with your sweetest smile.

Well... I love that smile most.

My cheeks got red, my nose too, got so blushing red so sudden.

No more words I can say and describe this deep feeling. I don't know who am I!

The time is ticking and it's getting late night.

I jump on my bed, pull my blanket, crawling inside, and hug my teddy so tight like I don't wanna let go.

Yes, actually I don't wanna let you go.

But I don't wanna be so selfish, it's for your good.

Well... I think, all that I know I will so missing you, I will miss your smiles, hugs, and kisses.

And I have just realize, that tomorrow will be totally different for me.

Without you to holding on.

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"It will become the memories, sweetest memories of us. It will last, will last in my heart and my mind forever."