Monday, May 26, 2014


"I don't know what happen right now... With all things around me, with that peoples and with me.

I can't understand, I can't feel anything, I can't stay awake.
Well... I don't know exactly why...
I think, I am numb."


I sit at my room, read Murakami, a cup of tea beside my comfy bed.
That night isn't like other nights before, and start tomorrow my day will be different until the time that I never know.
I lean my head, staring at the ceiling, my mind full with distraction.
I decide to close my book then close my eyes, try to relax my mind.

Yes, it works.
In there I see your face, with your sweetest smile.
Well... I love that smile most.
My cheeks got red, my nose too, got so blushing red so sudden.
No more words I can say and describe this deep feeling. I don't know who am I!

The time is ticking and it's getting late night.
I jump on my bed, pull my blanket, crawling inside, and hug my teddy so tight like I don't wanna let go.
Yes, actually I don't wanna let you go.
But I don't wanna be so selfish, it's for your good.

Well... I think, all that I know I will so missing you, I will miss your smiles, hugs, and kisses.
And I have just realize, that tomorrow will be totally different for me.
Without you to holding on.


"It will become the memories, sweetest memories of us. It will last, will last in my heart and my mind forever."