Rindu : Tadi, Sekarang, dan Nanti

"Aku kangen" bisikan pertama yang aku dengar sambil bersembunyi dibalik punggungku.
"Kangen ?" tanyaku dengan nada memanja sambil tersenyum.
Seperti anak kecil ia menganggukkan kepalanya perlahan sembari tetap menyembunyikan wajahnya.
"Iya, aku juga" jawabku dengan senyum.

Entah mengapa hari itu begitu berbeda, mungkinkah ini hanya perasaanku saja atau memang ada yang berbeda ?

Dalam sehari itu ia terasa begitu merindu dan memanjakan. Entah mengapa.
"Aku ngerasa kangen banget sama kamu" katanya sambil memelukku dengan erat.
Oh God aku suka momen ini, terlalu suka. Salah satu momen favoritku.
Pelukannya akan selalu berhasil membuatku luluh, merasa special dan aman.

Berikutnya kata-kata 'sakral' keluar juga dari mulut manisnya, I love you, berulang kali.
Pengucapannya yang lembut dan manis membuat detak ini melaju lebih kencang, selalu.
Aku suka. Terlalu menyukai ini. Begitu manis seperti dalam cerita fiktif dalam imajinasiku yang terproyeksi dalam kehidupan nyata. Aku menikmatinya, aku menyukainya.

Setiap hari aku semakin menyayangi dirinya, ya, baik ia sedang terlihat begitu jelek dan bodoh sekalipun. Dan aku tau dirinya pun juga begitu.

Sebelumnya pasti terdengar aneh, aku sebenarnya tak mengerti mengapa menuliskan ini.
Sebelumnya tak ada sama sekali dalam pikiranku untuk bercerita dan berbagi.
Inginnya, cukup aku dan dia saja; kekasihku sekaligus pujanggaku yang tau.
Tapi mungkin karena sama halnya dengan dirimu, aku sangat rindu denganmu. Baik untuk tadi, sekarang, dan nanti.

Vie et Arc-en-ciel | Life and Rainbow

La vie est comme un arc-en-ciel.
Il lui faut à la fois de la pluie et du soleil pour que ses couleurs apparaissent.

( Life is like a rainbow. It needs rain and the sun to bring out the colors)

Night Grouch

Ahh.. sometimes this life is funny...

Never get enough for what you already have..

but when you realize it's already too late.. it's too late to be not greedy..

Sometimes this life is sucks...

Yes, that's word always come from our mouth when we never got what we want..

and when we feel the deepest crestfallen because of we're flying too high..

This life's never be easy and unpredicted by us..

So don't just become a grouchy people that only grouching, try too be grateful..

'cause you'll see the real meaning of pain and happiness clearly.. :)

The Past and The Power of Love

Sometimes we miss our life in the past but sometimes we hate it too..

Sometimes we will remember it endlessly but most of them will forgotten...

Sometimes we said we won't change but in fact there's a lot of change...

And sometimes we also said we won't lie again in future but from that time we said that words we already lying...

So many feeling that we felt in the past and so many things that we got in the past..

Hurts

Sadness

Happiness

Madness

Loneliness

Jaded

Tears

Smiles

Laughs

also

LOVE

Even you become a hater or hated.. hurt nor harmed.. like or preferred... betrayer or betrayed.. but all of  that based on love..

That's why God made LOVE, because love make everything beautiful and love never die...

SHS and College

Hello fellas hw's ur day ? That must be great... ;)

Ga kerasa udah setun lebih ga ng'post apapun di blog ini, karena waktu tersikat habis sama kesibukan sekolah menjelang ujian... fiuh...

Ga kerasa juga sekarang udah lulus dari sekolah, dan bakal kuliah...

That must be different from shs... *absolutely dear*

Saking parnonya kdang suka tanya sama diri sendiri... I can face it, can't I ? And sometimes my brain just show up the possible-worst-things can happen at my next studies...

Mungkin hal itu dikarenakan belum terlalu mengenal aja tentang dunia perkuliahan, hahahahahaha...

Yah yang penting skrg aku bs lulus dengan nilai UN yg cukup memuaskan dan asuk ke univ yang aku ingini *actually my mom n pap wish* walau jurusannya ga sesuai yang aku rencanain dlu, karena emang aku udah ngelepas jurusan yang aku dulu pengenin... ahahahaha

Ga ada lagi sih yg mau ak shar, cuma rasanya kangen aja ng'post d blog ini...

Semuanya pasti baik deh...

I know i can do it, jut let it flow, dare to face it, and love it !! Never give up guys !!

Ok I'll see y'all soon !! Sayonara~

Finally I can write my new post again after very very looonnng time I can't touch my lappy...

How are you my blog ? I really miss you... I had many things that I want to share to you... Okay let's get start...

For today I will start from this story...

Hmmm... maybe this time I'm already mono, uno or you all can said SINGLE... :)

Yeah that's right... because in my life there's so many thing's had change... myuuu....

Time is still running...  that's why my life is change too...

Of course when it's happened, so many question in my head. Yah just like many people think it...

Why it must happened to me ? Why it must me, not another people !? I think it's not fair !!

but what could I do ??? Nothing... Just cry and pray fo that moment...

But now I realize, this life become nothing if there's no problems... Problems make me learn, problem make me more open minded, problems is a good teacher for my experience, and experience is a best teacher for my life....

Just do the best and let God do the rest....

Feel so Long

Nothing to do today...

I feel so bored with this boring situation...

Without you...

Aaarrrrggggghhhh,, why it's feel so loongg??

At night I can't sleep...

Why?

And why my feeling become nonsensical , it's start pell-mell!!

So bored...

So I just blogging, and do anything that I can do...

Okaayy..

I always wait you with faithful...

GBU y'aa....

Smooch... Smooch!! ^^

Only Love

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

Chorus

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye